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Friday, March 18, 2005

-gelly-

yesterday and today is one of the most taken aback days. a series of "fortunate" events happen today.

Scolding from my teacher:
Luckily i got scolding from my teacher, he scolded me for not trying hard enough, wait to fail and indirectly got shooted by my teacher that i am stupid and he is intelligent, say he nearly died for me, died while helping me do debugging. actually he also don't know how to code. Lecukily i got scolding instead of praising, or else he will have false high expectation on me. Wow...luckily.. must thank God for it. thank God that i am being scolded and i am waiting to fail, at least the teacher will not have high expectation on me mah! Thank God that i get scolded by my teacher and i stupidly stand there and smile at him while he scold and nag at me, this show my graciousness and my big forgiving heart despite everybody in that row looking at me.

Basic theory test:
Wow.. Luckily i failed my basic theory test AGAIN for the second time. Wow.. can't believe my luck. Luckily they fail me, so i can see that uncle insturctor again for the THIRD TIME ..haha.. and smile at him and irritate him by asking him where should i shade my circle again. wow.. so lucky. Thank God for a failed basic theory test. it is a wonderful experience when you are about to go school and such a nice surprise. Thank God that nobody EXCEPT joanna offer a consolation. That shows who my true friends are.. Thank God that this time i can walk the same route to the driving school again, the scenery is simply too beautiful. Perhaps i can accompany nick rite or cindy or beng tin or Linda? Life is simply too beautiful.. Fail again simply means i am not adept in understanding traffic rules, better learn again later died on the road.. Aiya..then my parents will miss me, Joanna will weep for me. Then aren't i too selfish. Thank God once again!

Coding my File Upload:
wow.. Thank God for coding my file upload for the 6th time and it failed, again and again and again. I grew to have lesser expectation on my marks. I humbled and got scolding from my teacher who is so much more intelligent that me. Not to mention, it helps in training up my perservarance! :) wonderful experience! i had never try coding something for 6th time. This is such a refreshing experience. Thank God! ha! My teacher actually say i do not try when i tried it and fail and fail. Never shed a tear for my consistent coding. Thank God that this thing makes me realise that the internet is full of useful information but it has equally that much of rubbish information which i dare not show my teacher.Thank God.. This time i couldn't find anything to thank God. Oh Maybe, more sympathtic looks from my classmates except my group members. Thank God! perhaps out of sympathetic they will lend a helping hand when my teacher scolds and nag at me again?

Being scolded stupid:

well i ask a stupid question in class then Chek Peng said that I am Berdoh, think it means stupid in malay? then the whole class laugh including the teacher. I felt like digging into a ground. Thank God for my thinck skinned face to smile and pretend nothing happen. Then when teacher give out the results, turn out i am top in class whereas the person who say me stupid got last in class. Haha.. talk about the final laughter..haha... Thank God for the excellent results, sort of a comforting thought after my failed basic theory test. Thank God if i am really stupid, without my stupididty how those people shine rite?? aiya, really Thank GOD! Praise the Lord!

JO and I bad mood:

Thank God that Joanna and I are in the same school, when we bad mood we can meet together and eat. I got a free sakae sushi treat from JOannA! wow.. thanks Joanna.. i am so bloated, i think i need to stay off from my fav sushi for quite sometime. the bill nearly went to $30. Think one day i will post the pix on the power of 2 bad mood girls.

actually i find that i do not like to be said stupid although a lot of people politely nv say me but that doesn't me i don't know that i am stupid. what chek peng and my teacher say is right.. actually i dunno why i stil feel quite upset.. HENG! heng i not clever, i not pretty or else people expect a lot from me.. so lucky.. So fortunate! if i am very pretty, must reject a guy's advances..headache la.. too clever, people always ask me for help in their homework, very busy. aiya.. be me is the best! right or not?? I can do it! i can prove to people i am not stupid.. I have my substance.. since God put me in IT, i know i have certain abilities that i can survive in IT. I can do it.. nothing can deter me except God.

Dear Lord,
i trust that whatever you do is for my good. Like i say, u r the potter's hand i am the clay. mould me the way u want me to. give thanks for all blessings and also tough stuff i have to take. Thank God.

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JoFsl winks
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